Kat's World =D

Well, it certainly has been a while, hasn't it? long story short, Horace and me-- nothing happened... i got a new bf... things didn't work out... anime boston was sorta fun... but i guess the real reason im here is because if i talked to any of my friends about this, they'd just say i'm being stupid or jealous or something...

basically, the school drama club had two auditions recently-- Babes in Toyland, and the annual Haunted House. Both of which, must of my friends got big-ish roles in... both of which i got stuck with the teensiest possible role. I mean yeah, im grateful i got a part and all, but when ur basically the only one of ur friends who doesnt get a speaking part (hell! even a specific person's victim would be nice!) u kinda feel inadequet (sp?), y'know? After all, it's my goal, no, my DREAM to be Belle in the spring production of Beauty and the Beast, but if i cant even be a chorus elf or a zombie or something, how am i supposed to do that?!

and here comes the things i may regret: talking about my friends. Im sorry if u guys read this, but i cant say it to ur faces or u'd hate me forever! Well, to start thigs off, i think the one i feel the most change with is Mary. I think she hates me! I don't even know why! I havent said anything bad about her, she's the one saying things about me! like last year, i found out she was having a party for her birthday and, being her friend, i was shocked to find this out... from another mutual friend! Now by the time chorus came around (the class we shared at the time), i had forgotten about that, so i asked if she had ay plans for the weekend. the second i asked, i instantly remembered. She told me about the party and said she was "sorry, and that she could only invite so many people". A couple nights later, i'm at another friend's house and we were talking about it and she told me that Mary told her that when she told me about the party, i flipped out and started yelling at her in front of the class!!! I couldn't believe it! ... These days Mary and I barely talk, but we do manage to keep things friendly, as if to protect what little spark of friendship we have left.

Then there's Minnie. Honestly, ever since she started watching a new anime, she's changed. She's become more distant. and... bossy, maybe? Whatever, all i know is she's different. like the way she looks at me is kinda cold, ya know? kinda like "oh, it's you". it kinda makes me feel uncomfortable...

Here's someone i never thought i'd bring up in a blog like this one: Leah. I love her to teath, i really do but somethime i wonder if i can trust her. like i know she's been playing the she said/she said game with me, misleading me and such every so often. and occasionally, she'll give me the Minnie stare too... and sometimes, when she compliments me, i wonder if she's being honest or not... We still have lots of fun together, don't get me wrong, and we get along great, but there are still some things i just can't talk to her about.

As for Sadie and Kalli, I havent felt much ice from them yet, but if i'm starting to feel that way about Leah, who knows...

So this whole ordeal is strting to make me wonder... am I doing something wrong? i know i've been becoming more social outside our group, but is doing that making them upset?if i keep it up, will they all hate me forever? I'm scred about what the future holds-- i'll be going off to college soon! and i don't wanna go thru that alone!! if anyone reads this and wants to give me some words of kindness, it would be greatly appreciated... that's all for now...

Heeeeeeey everyone! Here's what's up!! Apparently, I may not have enough money for AB this year... However, if you lovely people wanted to help... I'm having a sale once school starts back up again...

Kat’s Wonderful Merchandise Sale ’09!!!

Alrighty now~! It's been a while since my last entry, so here's wassup:

RELATIONSHIPS

Tim is (i guess) dating a girl named Ellie, who he dated last year... and oddly enough, I really don't care that much... even tho I've liked him for a reeeeeaaaally long time... is that weird? Also, a possible new player has entered the arena of my heart... though as of right now, it's only his sense of humor and his piano playing... We shall call him... um... Horace! He is the son of the Shakespeare teacher at my school. I'm not sure if I like him or not, but he seems nice enough... However, I remain single... =_=;

DRAMA

No, not that kind-- I mean like plays and stuff... Well, we just finished up The Hobbit (it was a musical!!! XD) and it was simply AMAZING!! I enjoyed (almost) every minute of it!! And up next, we're doing Romeo & Juliet, which I'm sure will be just as wonderful!! *knock on wood* Especially since we have such an astounding cast!!

Romeo: Sephers and Ichabod

Juliet: Alli and Carrie

Tybalt: Tim and some guy whose name I don't know but he kinda scares me...

Balthazar: Minnie and my other friend Sadie, who I'm surprised I haven't mentioned yet...

Benvolio: Horace!

And since I have to leave, I suppose I'll pick up later~! Cya!!!!!;)

Okay, so here's the INTRO BLOG!!!!!! KK, so basically, I got tired of wasting my friend's time on Deviantart, so I figured I'd rant here and give them the important stuff there! So that's how this came to be!

Anyway, if you read my profile, you know a bit about me. But Here's some basic stuff I didn't put on the profile that you'll need to know about, cuz I'll probably be ranting A LOT about these things: First and foremost, I'm just a high schooler, so for those reading, please excuse my typos, poor grammar, and making up words. It's what I do. Now then, being a high schooler, I have a lot of stress and I tend to get pissed off rather frequently, even if I don't show it. Usually form my teachers:

English: Mr. W
History: Mr. K
Math: Ms. W (no relation to Mr. W)
Science: Dr. W (oooooh, ur gonna hear me rant about him a bit...>_<;)
Greek: Mr. L
Chorus: Ms. Wy (holy crap, I have a lot of teachers whose last name starts with "w")
Drama: Mr. S

But yeah, I'm gonna be talking about them a lot because most of them su~ck... But then there's my friends and classmates who help me through the day. Now remember, these are codenames...

FRIENDS
Leah- My best friend since 7th grade. She's helped me through so much!
Mary- Another close friend. We've been friends since 5th grade. We aren't as close as we once were, though...
Kalli- A cute little darling, one of my "wives". always a pleasure to see her!
Minnie- One of Kalli's best friends, and mine. she's a total sweetheart!
Brie- Not a type of cheese, but president of the Anime Club, and one of my best friends for I don't even know how long!
Amy- Amy's been my friend since the moment we met in middle school and she's the closest thing to a sister I've ever had... no offense to anyone else...

OTHERS
Jake- Drama club president.
Carrie- Female VP of Drama Club. Is Dating Jake.
Shawn- Male Drama VP. I've known him since 7th grade but he doesn't remember me...
Tim- Treasurer of The Drama club. Also the current object of my affections. Or was. I'm not sure at the moment...

Edward- codenamed "Edward" for a reason. He designs all the sets & costumes, he sings, acts, dances, is tiny and adorable, but will bite your head off if he hears you say it. He's especially touchy about his hair. I'm not quite sure about my feelings for him... at the moment, he's simply my idol!

... But considering I'm terrible at talking to guys, I've only talked to Tim and Edward once or twice each... ^^; But my fears of talking to Edward are justified because, even though I'm sure he's a total sweetheart... he still scares me... XD There are many more, but I'll introduce them as I progress... Anyway, that's all for now, I suppose. I'll type more later!